Minor, but 'something'
But I couldn't, I decided I should visit the grave, pay respects. I emailed the church where his funeral had been, did they know where he was buried - No, neither did the Records Office the church'd suggested; it had been a long time ago, pre-www. By now the nightmares had stopped, I figured he'd just wanted some acknowledgement & I'd tried, end of. *I remember 'April' being on 1 email so the dreams were around the 1st weeks of April. I wish I'd kept a record, but I didn't realise that dates, or any of it, would be important later. The dreams lasted 5 or 6, maybe 7 nights; felt about a week.
3 months later on a rare night out with a friend she asked if I knew her Ex's cousin, that he'd died. I didn't. 2 nights later I sat bolt upright in bed & said his name, like you'd see on sit-coms, as I suddenly realised I DID know the person who'd died, he was the brother of another Ex, years ago (I hadn't thought of him as someone's 'cousin'! Plus I'd had a few drinks when she told me; not sharp) & he had the same name as the person in the dream message - I never thought of him at the time as I just didn't associate him with death; to me he was alive & still young, I'd assumed 'dead' must mean the 1 I knew was dead, 20+ yrs ago. But this recent death had happened halfway thru' the month, 'around' the time I was getting the dream message - Annoyingly I can't check exact dates as my only time record had been emails now deleted, I just remembered 1 mentioning 'your email of April..' The dreams may've been before he died, but that makes even less sense; I couldn't have prevented it - plus I got it muddled up anyway.
I hadn't seen him for years, we'd been more friendly acquaintances than close & I wasn't 'romantically' interested, yet knowing that now he was no longer in the world, I couldn't bare it, I cried for weeks, in private. I can only explain it, apart from the sheer unfairness of dying young, was that he was a 'pure soul'? - Not in a soppy way, but he was unusually empathetic, good humoured, no malevolence. I didn't once see him lose his temper in years of being around him - basically the rare type of person which this world needs more of, not less.
I've always been interested in the paranormal, tho' never experienced anything. After more death, friends & family, I wanted reassurance that 'this isn't it' & tried asking a couple of US Christian sites what the dream message was for, hoping they'd say I was a 'Sensitive' or something cool. One changed the subject & the other said it was 'from Satan & best ignored'. Where/whatever it was from, it does help; whenever I feel it's all pointless, I remember the dream experience & I know there is 'something'. I don't know what, but something.
[Originally posted by Bluesky on 23 Aug 2017, 22:51]